Addiction

Thrill before guilt
Guilt before pain
And after that
Wat will remain?
Will there be
What was before?

Eyes filled up
Tears and shame
A broken heart
A shattered soul
Can there be
What was before?

Your trembling hands
Keep me together.
Don't let go
Just please don't.
We might restore
What was before.

The questions arise
Heart asking, why?
How could you?
Why would you?
Do I want
What was before?

No answer can
Heal your wounds.
No promises will
Kill the pain.
I can't create
What was before. 

Praying for help. 
Praying for hope. 
Repair our hearts. 
Clean my soul. 
God can restore. 
What was before. 

I'm free now. 
Living a dream. 
Christ my Savior.
God my King. 
Nevermore like before. 
Captive no more.